Sleep Training a 1 year old-Day 2

If I could sum up last night in one word it would be, DEFEAT!

She had her bath, we rocked and she went down to sleep in her crib so easily. I was sure it was going to be even better than last night. She woke up at 9, 11, and 5 more times after that. Each time she woke, I patted her back until she fell back asleep.  Once 2 am rolled around and she was still not sleeping soundly, I brought her into our bed. That didn’t help either. She was restless and cried off and on the rest of the night.

We’re exhausted and like I said, feeling defeated. But I know my God is faithful and my prayers for her to have a peaceful, restful, full night of sleep are not going unheard. I’m praying for his super-human strength today and restoration. I’m repeating Isaiah 40:31 over and over today.

“but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

Let’s see what Day 3 brings..


Sleep Training a 1 year old-Day 1

Since 6 months old Harper has been sleeping in our bed (btw something I said I would never allow!). Between the constant ear infections, colds, teething, so on and so on, putting her in the bed with us, was the only way we were going to get any sleep. The last few weeks, she’s been having night terrors, and constant restlessness during the night, so we are no longer sleeping at all.

So I’ve decided it’s time to make the transition from our bed to her crib. When you Google “toddler sleep training” it’s overwhelming the number and types of responses you find. 5.5 million results actually, from mommy blogs (like this one), to MD websites, to I am going to try a way that I think will work best for me and for her. (P.s. every child is different so my way may not work for you and yours) Last night was night 1 and here’s how it went down:

730ish to 8ish–she had been playing for a while, started getting fussy and rubbing her eyes. I took her into her room, turned the lights off, and sound machine on (I don’t really know if this works or not but here’s the link to the one I have Munchkin Nursery Projector ) We rocked and I prayed, and prayed, and prayed until she started falling asleep in my arms. I stood up and she stirred, so I held her until she fell asleep, then I put her in her crib. She woke up, so I patted her back and she fell asleep. This took several rounds of me patting her back, then her waking up when she realized my hand was off of her. As I walked out of the room, she stood up in her crib and was crying. I decided I was going to continue walking out, get myself ready for bed and if she was still crying, I would go back in.

810–She was still crying after about 10 min. I went back into her room, and rocked her, and prayed, and prayed, and prayed, until she was asleep. This time when I laid her in her crib, she didn’t wake back up.

820–Mama has a glass of wine and chocolate (I strongly recommend both while sleep training)

1100–She wakes up crying in her crib. I go back into her room, rock her until she falls back asleep and back in the crib she went.

She slept from 11 to 4am y’all!! I couldn’t believe it! When she woke up at 4 I just put her in the bed with us since the alarm was going off in an hour anyway. It was amazing!! Never underestimate the power of prayer! Only God got that baby girl to sleep that long in her crib and restored me after a night of sleep! I’m praying the rest of the week goes just as well. My goal is that she will be able to get herself to sleep when I put her in her crib, but for now I’ll take the 5 hours of uninterrupted sleep!!


A Letter to My Son on His 10th Birthday

It’s been 10 years since I met you. I looked into those tiny eyes, and held those tiny hands and felt a love I never knew existed. In these 10 years, you’ve grown into an incredible young man. In these last 10 years, you and I have grown up together. You’ve helped me to become a better person. I have made so many mistakes along the way, and for that I’m sorry. I know I will make more as we go thru this journey called life. The early years of your life were a whirlwind, and many of those days, you saw the worst in me. It was because of you and the grace of God, I had the courage to keep pressing on, to become the best version of me for you.

You and your smirky grin, and those deep blue eyes, make me melt. Your personality is contagious. You’ve never met a stranger. You pour out a love for the people around you that mimics the love of Jesus. I remember watching you running down the football field, and stopping mid play to help a teammate up off of the ground. You are so incredibly brave. That bravery was on full display when you stepped up to fill in for the part of Mr. Mayor in the play at school. Learning all your lines in a matter of hours. My heart overflows when I see you with your sisters. It’s like being a big brother is a role you’ve always been meant to play. You never complain when asked to do chores. You go out of your way to help me. You open up doors for me, and always ask if you can carry something for me.

You’ve shown so much growth this year, not just physically, but emotionally and spiritually as you asked Jesus to come into your heart. I pray everyday that God will help me to be the mom that you need. I ask him to help you be a light that shines for you, everywhere you go. He answers that one daily.

I am so proud of you, and proud of the man you will become. Ronnie and I, your dad and Alyssa, we all love you so much!

Happy Birthday my love!

If you don’t believe, you don’t receive?

Over the weekend, during a conversation about Christmas, my 9 year old tells me, “I know Santa isn’t real.” He says it’s impossible for one man to go to every house and bring presents. My initial response was “If you don’t believe, you don’t receive!” That took the conversation from bad to worse. Tears were streaming, he knew he was right, and didn’t want anyone telling him he was wrong. My heart broke after this conversation. I was unrealistically hoping he would always believe, never ask questions, and we would never have to talk about this. My little boy, is growing up.

I didn’t know the right way to talk about it. I read a blog that gave me some ideas on how to handle it. After asking for forgiveness, for the rotten way I handled it earlier, we talked about the magic of Santa. That even though, we cannot see Santa, we know that his magic is very real. Once he was assured that he still will get the same amount of presents as his sisters, crisis was averted.

As believers, at some point we will be approached by non-believers, asking the same questions about God, my son was asking about Santa. Is God real? How is it possible? How can he be in all those places at once? Thankfully, we have the word of God to turn to give them answers. We have our own testimony’s to share with them to let them hear exactly how real He is. We have the daily God moments to share that display His glory. We were created to testify of God’s goodness.

I was so worried in talking with my son about giving him the perfect answer about Santa. He didn’t need the perfect answer, and those asking questions about our God, don’t need the perfect answer either. He wants us to use the voice that He’s placed inside of us to tell them about Jesus.

“but in your hearts honor Christ the Lord as holy, always being prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you; yet do it with gentleness and respect.” 1 Peter 3:15


I Surrender

Most of my adult life, I’ve struggled with anxiety. Something triggers it, and I find myself in a downward spiral of despair. Feeling so completely overwhelmed, and most of the time, unable to even explain to anyone what’s wrong. My chest feels so heavy, like someone is sitting on it, sometimes it’s hard to breathe. It feels like the weight of the world is on me. I feel so sick, the thought of food is nauseating. There was a time in my life that I would search for anything to numb this feeling I had. Alcohol, pills, cigarettes, anything that I thought would make me not feel what I was feeling. I’ve learned that these feelings come on me when I get a sense that I am losing control. In my mind, I feel like I need to have 100% percent control of every situation in my life. In my walk as a Christian, I am learning how twisted that concept I had was. We were not created to have control over our lives, that’s what God’s job is. When we try to take that control from Him, we are inviting the enemy come in. When he comes in, he comes to  destroy us. Over the last few weeks, I’ve struggled again with this anxiety. Instead of pressing into the Lord and giving it all to Him, I’ve tried to take back my control. In turn, I’ve allowed the enemy to swoop in and wreak havoc. I’m so thankful for a message I heard last night from one of my sisters in Christ. (<3 you Danielle!!)  I needed the change of perspective. She told the story about Hannah. God’s timing was perfect in Hannah’s life, just like it is in all of our lives. Hannah prayed, she “poured out her soul to the Lord.” (1 Samuel 1:15) She never tried to take the control in her life, she let God be God. And in His timing, “the Lord granted her what she asked of him.” (1 Samuel 1:27)

Father, help me to be more like Hannah. God I fully surrender. When I grow weary, I will press into you deeper than ever. You are in control.

Baby Must Have’s 3 to 6 months

It’s been a crazy few months, and I haven’t devoted the time to write any new blog posts, so decided to start back up with my baby must have’s list for 3-6 months. Our sweet Harper Lu turned 6 months yesterday! It’s so cliche but time really is flying by!

*Links to everything mentioned are listed

Camilia Teething Relief–these individual teething relief drops have worked wonders! I like that they don’t actually numb her mouth, the active ingredient is Chamomile so it won’t cause numbing to her gag reflex causing her to choke during feedings. You can give one dose every 15 min, but I’ve never had to repeat a dose with her. One works great! Camilia Teeting Relief

Baby Banana Teether/Toothbrush–After reading tons of reviews on different types of teethers, I came across this one. It’s awesome! It’s perfect for her tiny hands to hold and easy for her to bring to her mouth. It’s made from silicone so it’s gentle on her gums. It can be used as a toothbrush as well. You can also attach a pacifier clip to it and attach to clothing. “>Baby Banana Teether

Little Remedies Saline Drops–with the teething has come congestion and a runny nose. It does horrify her Daddy when we use this, but it really helps to loosen up those secretions to get them out with the bulb syringe. The drops do come out quickly. I don’t even squeeze the bottle, just holding it upside down and into her nostrils works fine. I put these in and wait a few minutes, then use the syringe, just be ready for all the snot that comes out :/ Little Remedies Saline Drops

Fisher Price Sit Me Up Baby Floor Seat–I first saw this seat at her daycare, I told Ronnie we had to have one! I will put her in it in the mornings while I’m getting ready, or sit her in it while we are in the living room. It has toys attached that she can grab onto and put into her mouth, of course. It’s a nice way to keep her entertained, as well as helping provide the extra support since she is not sitting independently quite yet. It also folds up. We just took this with us on a trip and was easy to throw in the car and use in the hotel room. FP Sit Me Up Baby Floor Seat

Activity Play Mat–I tried using this before the 3 month mark, and Harp wasn’t having it. Now that she is more mobile, rolling over and interactive with toys, she loves it! Anything that hangs down and she can try to grab or hit at will keep her entertained. There are tons of these out there, this is one similar to what we have. Play Mat




Risen to life by love


There are times in a marriage that make you fall in love with your spouse like never before..your engagement, wedding day, the birth of your babies. The day in this picture was one of those days for me. Since rededicating my life to Christ in December, I had been approached by our pastor about being baptized. I was very quick to reject this idea, as I had been baptized as a teenager. Some time passed, and I was approached again. I was hesitant of the idea of being surrounded by a crowd of people with all those eyes on me. He reminded me what baptism is, the PUBLIC profession of faith. So I told him I’d pray about it. One night leaving church, I reflected on my first baptism. It was a joke! I had no clue what I was doing, I didn’t even know what it meant to be saved! After talking with God, I knew it was time to be baptized. Last Wednesday night was the night! The Holy Spirit filled the place up!! I was shaking and crying throughout the praise and worship time before the baptisms took place! I’d never felt God’s presence so strongly.  It was such a powerful night! Although I was surrounded by hundreds of sets of eyes, the only thing I could feel was the Holy spirit washing over me as I came out of that water, and my husbands love pouring out as he prayed over me. I’m so thankful to God for this man! I’m so undeserving, and most days I feel as if I fail him as his wife. I never would have imagined our life together where it is now. There have been many twists and turns along the way, but we have been perfectly placed by God on our journey separately, and as one. I can’t wait to see where the Lord leads our family next!